I experienced several events of grief and loss recently, which caught up with me and spiraled me into a depressed state. I suddenly found myself crying, not wanting to be around people and began cancelling engagements with friends. I have spent most of my life holding my feelings in to protect others and be the peacekeeper. I found myself being very judgmental of others as well as myself. Why was I judging others, why compare myself to them? How could someone who helps other